Baggage

"But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 3: 13 & 14

     It would be awfully hard to run the Boston Marathon bearing suitcases in each hand and a backpack weighing the runner down. In order to win, the runner wears lightweight clothes and shoes that fairly skim the pavement.
     Life is a journey, a race. Without goals, a person flounders. As a Christian, my goal is to live for all eternity with Jesus, going to the mansion that he has prepared for me. Along the way, I must keep my eyes on the Good Shepherd who guides my way and hope that others follow in my footsteps, too. When I pack my bags of guilt, remorse and insecurities, what chance have I of winning? When Jesus gave up his life at Calvary for me, he paid for my sins and remembers them no more. I need to leave all that baggage at the foot of the cross as I begin a new year.

"On my knees at the foot of the cross,
There is hope at the end of the day.
There is rest for the weary, there is hope for the lost,
On my knees at the foot of the cross."

The Healing Tree

"On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations."
Revelation 22:2 & 3

     Imagine living with people of all nations, all races, in heaven. What of our former bias? What do we do with our natural propensity toward clannishness? Will there be a language barrier or other social differences? Will we segregate into groups, hanging around with our "own kind"?
The Bible says God will make all things new! There will no longer be any curse so we will be able to get along with anyone because the common denominator will be the Holy Spirit of our Savior. Think of the leaves of that tree as the fruits of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness and self control. The past will be healed and we will carry on a conversation with anyone, no interpretors needed.

Walk With God

"Noah was a righteous man, blameless among the people of his time, and he walked with God."
Genesis 5:9

     The people of Noah's time were so violent and corrupt to the core that, the Bible says, only evil abided in their hearts all the time. God brought the great flood to wipe the slate clean of mankind; only Noah and his family were saved.
     When I read the paper or watch the society I live in, mingled with the stories of crimes committed, I also see redeeming stories of compassion or generosity. But, in Noah's day, was this so? How could this one guy be blameless when everyone around him was evil, 24/7? Were his parents part of that crowd? What of his siblings? Who taught him right from wrong? Who was his role model? The answer is God. Noah walked with God.
     Even when the world around me becomes desecrated, God is there to walk beside me. I will put my hand in His.

The Willingness of the Faithful

The angel Gabriel has visited Mary saying: "Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you. Do not be afraid, Mary, you have found favor with God." - from Luke chapter 1

     The word favor means "friendly or kind regard, approval, liking." The Lord likes Mary very much; he approves of her. Even though she is young, she stands in high regard, so high that she will bear God's Son, whose kingdom shall never end. Why is she favored? In verse 45 of the same chapter, Mary's relative, Elizabeth, tells why: "Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished."  When Mary was told she'd be overshadowed by the power of the Most High, resulting in pregnancy, she didn't laugh, doubt, argue or complain. She simply said, "I am the Lord's servant. May it be to me as you have said." She believed and she submitted to the fulfillment of prophecy.
     Dearest God, the Christmas story is filled with examples of those who were willing to look, listen, obey and follow and were instrumental in unfolding your plan of salvation. There's Joseph who listened to your words of guidance and warning multiple times, uprooting whatever plans he may have had as they  moved to Bethlehem, Egypt and Nazareth. There's Mary, who must've suffered greatly with an unplanned pregnancy. Who would believe her explanations? She gave birth in a stable with no midwife, only Joseph to help. Yet, what a marvelous tapestry she's being woven into! Generations shall call her blessed. There's also the Magi who curiously followed a star. The shepherds heard the gospel through a great company of the heavenly host and hurried off to see for themselves. They were the first witnesses and spread the amazing story to everyone who would listen.
     Lord, grant unto me a willing, believing spirit so your story may live in me.
    

Abide in Peace

"A voice is heard in Ramah, weeping and great mourning, Rachel weeping for her children and refusing to be comforted, because they are no more."
Matthew 2:18

     As I grieve with the rest of the nation for the twenty children who were mercilessly massacred in Connecticut, I recall the evil King Herod from the time of Christ. Because he'd heard a new King had been born, he ordered the deaths of all baby boys under the age of two. The peaceful manger scene in Bethlehem simmered with diabolical undercurrents for, even in Jesus' day, terror reigned. Think of all those Judean parents whose sons, chubby and warm, were ripped from their homes; how they must've grieved. Yet, the angels heralded "Peace on Earth, goodwill to men." How can this be?
     Peace originates in the heart. During his ministry, Jesus told the people, "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33) May this peace, that passes all understanding, reside in your hearts today, through Christ Jesus, I pray.

Where is God When Tragedy Strikes?

"The Lord God is in your midst, a warrior who gives victory."
Zephaniah 3:17
"You are the salt of the earth...You are the light of the world...Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
Matthew 5: 13,14

     This morning, as I read the newspaper account of the shootings at Sandy Hook Elementary School, it hit close to home. I work at an elementary school in the office and often feel the weight of the responsibility for the safety of those inside. What if I unlocked the door for the wrong person? How would I stop the perpetration of evil should it visit? Fear began to assail me as Monday morning drew nearer.
     When I left for church, I hoped the Pastor would address this senseless tragedy and show us how to grapple with it. One of the resources he used was a quote from Mr. Fred Rogers, the television host. When, as a boy, he had heard of scary news stories, his mother would say, "Look for the helpers." Then, as I looked back on all the stories when evil seemed to reign - September 11th, Virginia Tech, Chardon High School, the Aurora movie theater, Sandy Hook - the faces of the helpers emerged like a light shining into the darkness, reminding my frightened heart that God is in our midst. He wears his heart on the sleeves of the helpers.
     Lord Jesus, as I return to work tomorrow, may I be committed to help those in need, empowered by your victorious Holy Spirit.

     "Perfect love casts out fear." - 1John 4:18

My Hope is in The Lord

"...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." -Isaiah 40: 31

"We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary, behind the curtain." - Hebrews 6:19

This is Webster's definition of hope: a feeling that what is wanted, will happen; desire accompanied by anticipation or expectation. Christmas is the ideal time to meditate on hope because it is a time of anticipation. But what am I hoping for? What is it I am waiting for?
The early believers, prior to the arrival of the Christ child, eagerly hoped for their Messiah, a Savior to make all things new. Old Simeon, who waited his whole life for Christ, was not disappointed when, taking the baby Jesus in his arms, he praised God, saying: "For my eyes have seen your salvation, which you have prepared in the sight of all people." (Luke 2: 30 & 31)
So, since Jesus has already come, what am I anticipating? His second coming! He has gone on to prepare a heavenly mansion for me and has promised to come back for me so that I may be with him for all eternity. Truly this hope is the anchor of my soul, grounding me firmly and securely, renewing my strength with optimism. I may carry on because I know how the story concludes, and it's a very happy ending.

What Do You Want for Christmas?

"The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside the still waters, he restores my soul."
Psalm 23: 1-3

     It's ironic. At Christmas, we celebrate the birth of this Shepherd, the desire of every nation, yet it has become a time to say "What do you want for Christmas?"  Daily, advertisements are foisted upon all of us, displaying all of the dreamy gifts we simply must have: expensive jewels, shiny boots, the latest gadget, toys that make noise and cosmetic kits for young girls.
     Where are the green pastures when we're traipsing the concrete halls of the malls with lists as long as our arm? Must we wait until we are singing "Silent Night" by candlelight before we feel that restoration of our souls? No! The advent of the Messiah is as fresh as each morning when I bow my head and humbly say, "Come into my heart, Lord Jesus."
     Honestly, I don't want a thing for Christmas!

Get Things Into Perspective

"Who has understood the mind of the Lord, or instructed him as his counselor? Whom did the Lord consult to enlighten him, and who taught him the right way? Who was it that taught him knowledge or showed him the path of understanding?"
Isaiah 40: 13 & 14

      A teacher, a mentor, a pastor or a parent; any of these people can teach me or show me the way as I progress through life. I am always learning as I go, perhaps by taking a class or reading an article. All of us were born knowing nothing but instinct.
     But the Lord is the ultimate Know It All! You can't get any higher than him. No one taught him the workings of the universe or showed him how to assemble a human body. He simply spoke and things were created: perfectly, intricately and with precision. What a wonderful place to put my faith and trust!

What Attracts Me to Jesus?

"He tends his flock like a shepherd: he gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young."

     Close to the heart of Christ! I can feel his vibrant warmth, his loving protection and vital strength as he carries me, leading me beside the still waters and through the dark valleys. He pulls me away from dangerous places, urging "Follow me!"
     When Jesus walked beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw brothers Peter and Andrew fishing there. "Come, follow me and I will make you fishers of men," Jesus called. I often wonder what drew these two to leave their nets at once and follow along? Did they see a gentle shepherd? Did they recognize his royalty? Did Jesus have a magnetism, a uniqueness?
     What draws me to follow him? To quote from the song, "How Many Kings", I give my answer:

"How many kings stepped down from their thrones?
How many lords have abandoned their homes?
How many greats have become the least for me?
How many Gods have poured out their hearts
To romance a world that has torn all apart?
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?

Only one did that for me."

Consider Him

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders us and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who, for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. "
Hebrews 12: 1-3

     I can picture the grandstands filled with cheering Christians who've gone on before me. Abel, a righteous man; Noah, who built an ark while his neighbors laughed at him; Abraham, who lived in tents while he looked forward to the City "whose architect and builder is God"; Joseph, who was sold by his brothers and thrown into jail; Job, who endured great losses yet knew his Redeemer lives; Mary, mother of Jesus, whose life was changed by an unplanned pregnancy as the Messiah made his entrance in Bethlehem.
     If they can endure their hardships, so can I. Lord, I long to cast away all that inhibits my race. I praise you for all the times you helped me to my feet, smiling and prodding me onward. When I was lowest, you carried my in your everlastingly strong arms, for, you yourself endured the worst on that black day, when the sun stopped shining at midday as you hung on a cross, the Father turning his face away as you bore the burdens of the world. This you accepted so that I may not lose heart!

A Lasting Impression

"By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith, he still speaks, even though he is dead."
Hebrews 11:4

     Often we wish to make a good first impression because we believe that will last the longest in the memories of others. But what impression will I make long after I am gone from this world? Here, I read about Abel who was perhaps the fourth person ever created, and his righteousness teaches me about the selfless love that pleases God thousands of years after he lived.
     Lord, when I think about all the times I've been short-tempered or huffy with others, when I've grumbled and groused until I've driven people away, I am ashamed of the negative impression I have left. My facial expressions, body language and actions often speak louder than my words. Like Abel, the way I live my life may emanate from beyond my grave! How I would much rather be remembered for my love for you, yet if I am totally honest with myself, I know I am sorely lacking. Father, keep constructing me, molding me into a Godly woman who makes a Christ-like impression on others.

Respect The Healer

"The centurion replied, 'Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof.  But just say the word and my servant will be healed. For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under
me. '"
Matthew 8:8

Although this man wants something of Jesus (to heal his servant), he gives Him due respect, humbling himself before his creator. He recognizes the authority that Jesus has and compares it to his smallness. "Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof..."
How many times have I rattled off requests without bothering to humble myself and exalt God first? The One to whom I pray is the Great I Am, the Ancient of Days, the Glorified One who sits upon heaven's throne amid saints and angels! All authority under heaven and earth emanate from Him! When I approach his mercy seat, I should "fall at his feet as though dead", like John did in Revelation 1:17.
Lord, forgive me, for you alone are the Almighty God. I do not deserve to have you.

Sweet Compassion

"You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea."
Micah 7:19

When I flip back into the seedy pages of my personal history, I don't like to read the parts where I hurt someone, lied about something, said savage things or made a loved one cry. I'd rather dwell on the one paragraph where I helped at a soup kitchen or donated money to a charity. So, when I read the verse above, my heart is jubilant and I smile broadly knowing that all the ugliness is tied into a haversack and thrown away for good: sunken, forgotten, hurled into the fathomless depths!
As a Christian, I am called to be Christ-like. Do I extend this same measure of compassion to those who've hurt me? Until I forgive others, I am not forgiven. If I so love this erasure of my sins, why would I withhold it from my fellow humans?
"With the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Matthew 7:2

The Secret of Thankfulness

"Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again: Rejoice!... I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength."
Philippians 4: 4, 12 & 13

     This holiday seems to revolve around food and football instead of giving thanks to God. The early settlers had many losses after arriving on the Mayflower, yet they gathered together with thankful hearts. One of my ancestors, Richard Warren, was among those who was on that ship; I'd like to think he was bowing his head on that first Thanksgiving many years ago. We are to rejoice in the Lord always, whether we have feast or famine, simply because He is God.
     "And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." (verse 19)
     Dear God,
Every day should be Thanksgiving Day when hearts and hands are raised to you in appreciation. Forgive our greediness and selfish desires, forgive the Black Friday society in which we live where the Christmas ads begin after Halloween. The whole concept of buying more and more, shuffling along looking for deals, is such stupidity when, a year from now, most folks will not remember what they received.  The peace of God they are searching for comes not from mountains of stuff but from prayer, faith and giving You due praise and thanks. You will guard our hearts and minds against all evil influence, including greed and gluttony. (See Philippians 4: 8 & 9)
     The secret to being truly thankful in every situation is this: Think about whatever is noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent and praiseworthy. Put all these thoughts into action and the God of peace will be with you. Hallelujah! Amen!

One Day At A Time

"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:34

It does my soul good for Jesus to recognize what it's like to live in this fallen world. It's not easy to live one day at a time, yet that is all I truly have. Yesterday's spent; tomorrow is not guaranteed. Strive as I may, I cannot add one hour to my life. Planning for the future is wise, but worrying about it is foolish!
Recently, I was most troubled by news of a co-worker who received a dim prognosis. His cancer is inoperable; my heart bleeds for him. But, he does have today. That is all any of us have, for we are all dying eventually. Today is a gift to be opened with a sense of wonder. What is inside?

One of a Kind

"There is no one like you, O Lord, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears."
1 Chronicles 17:20

There are scores of people, but only one God. There are legions of angels, but not one of the spirit world is like God. Satan wishes he were like God, and he has deceived many, but he is not like God at all.
Only one. In this day of supply and demand, variety and choice, it's hard to imagine only one of anything. I may think I am unique but there are many right-handed, tall, brunette female Americans who love writing, reading and walking in the leaves. I'm so glad there's only one God who supplies all my needs and fulfills all my desires. There is no need for any other!

How Will I Answer?

"What will I do when God confronts me? What will I answer when called to account? Did not he who made me in the womb make them? Did not the same one form us both within our mothers?"
Job 31:13-15

What will I do when God confronts me about the people I have mistreated? What answer shall I give? With the same loving hands he used to create me, he also made the certain people who get under my skin. Lord, teach me how to view people through your eyes of love. The same promises of peace, joy and forgiveness are extended to them as well; they should be able to see you when they see me. They are your children and I am clearly in the wrong when I am rude and self-serving. I am sorry, Lord. Forgive me.

The Gate in the Garden of Life

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."
Matthew 7: 13, 14

It's not always fun to go the other, unpopular way, especially when it seems like those on the broad road are having a gas. Carefree, high on life, they're all going the easy way. But Jesus says this way leads to destruction.
I imagine the narrow gate, off the beaten path, ensconced by vines in a shady arbor. Hard to find but so worth the effort, for when I swing the squeeky gate, I've entered the portal of life everlasting.
Jesus said, "Knock and the door will be opened unto you." (Matthew 7:7) If you look for Him, you will find him when you seek with all your heart.

Equal Opportunity Employer

"He causes the sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous."
Matthew 5:45

God is an equal opportunity employer. His word says he "so loved the world that he sent his only begotten son" (John 3:16); it does not specify race or social status.  Sometimes when I watch the birds, their impartiality amazes me. Their streamlined bodies grace the branches of the gnarly, dead tree as well as the boughs of beautiful blossoms. Squirrels ferret about in unkempt yards with the same zeal they use for trimmed ones. A cat may purr with content in the lap of a homeless beggar as well as those from fine society. They, like God, look upon the heart. So should I.

High Expectations

"Elisha replied to her, 'How can I help you? Tell me, what do you have in your house?'
'Your servant has nothing there at all,' she said, 'except for a little oil.'
Elisha said, 'Go around and ask all your neighbors for empty jars. Don't ask for just a few...'"
2 Kings 4: 1-7

An impoverished widow came to the prophet, Elisha, for help. Her sons will be sold into slavery to pay her debts. Assessing her situation, he needed to know if she had anything to work with; she has a little oil. Not knowing what he had in mind, she took that leap of faith and began asking for jars. Empty jars! Lots of them. Maybe her neighbors thought she was nuts. She herself may have wondered what it was all about, but desperate times called for desperate measures. Elisha told her to pour her little bit of oil into those jars - and pour she did - until they were all full. She then sold the oil for a profit.
What if she had blown off Elisha's advice? What if she, being embarrassed, only asked for a few jars?
Lord, may this teach me to expect much when I use what I have been given. Also, may I be a generous neighbor to those in need

Victory In Jesus

"On this mountain he will destroy the shroud that enfolds all peoples, the sheet that covers all nations; he will swallow up death forever. The Sovereign Lord will wipe away the tears from all faces; he will remove the disgrace of his people from all the earth."
Isaiah 25: 7, 8

The mountain was Calvary. The shroud silenced the voice of the Messiah. The sheet wrapped his wounded body as he lay in the dark tomb. As dawn rose on Resurrection Day, so did our Victor over death. He dried the tears of Mary in the garden and he turned the consternation of his disciples into cries of joy. The shame and disgrace of a criminal's crucifixtion was transfigured as the King of Kings swallowed up death forever!
Hallelujah, Lord Jesus! Amen!

Do You Have a Heart Condition?

"Rend your heart, and not your garments. Return to the Lord your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity."
Joel 2:13

     Long ago, to demonstrate grief, people would tear their clothes. I love the visual metaphor of rending my heart, grieviously tearing it assunder for God to cleanse and repair. The heart is the source of good and evil. It's the womb for thought seeds. If my heart belongs to God, plants of worth and beauty will flourish there. But if Satan creeps under the gate like a persistant weed, slowly the goodness and loveliness are choked out by selfish thorns.
     Lord, praises from my lips rise to you for you are gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love! May your spirit freely produce fruit in my heart's garden so that I may be just like you.

How Much Does This Cost?

"Then he showed me Joshua, the high priest standing before the angel of the Lord, and Satan, standing at the right side to accuse him...Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. The angel said to those standing before him, 'Take off his filthy clothes.' Then he said to Joshua, 'See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put rich garments on you.'"
Zechariah 3: 1,3,4

     Satan! Always standing around waiting to accuse me! I can imagine him smirking at me as I stand before the Lord, head bowed, in my dirty garments of sin, all the mucky stuff he coerced me to do. But, wait! The accusations are correct! I did do that awful thing! I did say that about someone! It's all true. How can I get out of these offensive clothes? Wait...what's this I see? The angel is bringing out a richly ornamented robe and, just as Cinderella trades her sooty housedress for the glittering ballgown of blue, so I am dressed in this magnificent garb! How can this be? I've no money. How much does this cost?
     John 19:23 says: "When the soldiers crucified Jesus, they took his clothes, dividing them into four shares, one for each of them, with the undergarment remaining. This garment was seamless, woven in one piece from top to bottom." Jesus gave up his garments for me. Naked, he hung on a rough hewn cross, bleeding and dying, forgiving me with each ragged breath, so I may be robed in HIS righteousness.  The King of Creation became sin for me so that I may become "the righteousness of God."(2 Corinthians 5:21)  When I wear my cross necklace, I remember what his nakedness represents for me.
    

Planting Seeds

"He also said, 'This is what the Kingdom of God is like. A man scatters seed on the ground. Night and day, whether he sleeps or gets up, the seed sprouts and grows, though he does not know how."
Mark 4: 26, 27

     Seeds still in the packet have the potential for growth but are useless without sun, soil and rain, those provisions from God. Until a person opens the packet and scatters the seeds, there's no growth.
     If I read God's word but do not share it with others, I'm peering down into the seed packet, but when I write this blog, the potential is released, the seeds are scattered! I don't know who will read what I wrote but I do know God's word is the Bread of Life, a stream of Living Water that quenches those who hunger and thirst.
     Why would I want to keep that to myself?

A Fleeting Shadow

"O Lord, what is man that you care for him, the son of man that you think of him? Man is like a breath, his days are like a fleeting shadow."
Psalm 144: 3,4

     Each day, without fail, obituaries are printed in the newspapers across the world. Some have a photograph, some have lengthy accounts, others are brief. What mark did they leave? What difference did they make? Were they abusive or kind? Soft spoken or harsh yellers? How can God love each one so much that he sent his only begotten Son to keep them from perishing?
     From my perspective, my time is long, my life is important, things matter - but who will remember me in 75 years when my children pass away? Who will see my gravestone and think about me?
     "Only what's done for Christ will last."

He Knows Me

"O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you percieve my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue, you know it completely, O Lord."
Psalm 139: 1-4

     It's an amazing thought that God knows my name, but he knows me better than I know myself. Why is he so interested in me that he would search my heart, becoming familiar with all my ways? To know when I sit or when I rise, he has to be right there with  me. He knows what I am going to say next! Uh oh. That's humbling when I think of some of the garbage that comes out of  my mouth. I'd rather only good things did, especially if he's listening.
     Lord, like a spouse, you see me with rumpled hair and morning breath and yet, you are faithfully near. The King of Kings sees me at my worst! If I were going to meet the President, I would have to buy a new outfit; I would not be seen in my cathair-covered robe and scuffed slippers, yet this is how God daily sees me through eyes of familiar love. He made me!

Step Out of the Boat

"Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came to Jesus."
Matthew 14:29, 30

     Jesus must've relished in Peter's impulsivity, his derringdo! What reckless courage he had to step out of the boat amid wind and waves. Perhaps it would have been "easier" on a calm lake with a still boat, but Peter wanted to be like Jesus. For an instant, he knew he could walk on water, too. What a spiritual high! His eyes, locked on Jesus' eyes, determined and shining until..."But when he saw the wind he was afraid and, beginning to sink, he cried out, 'Lord, save me!'" It wasn't the Law of Gravity that caused him to sink, it was fear.
     Jesus, give me a courageous heart that will take risks. May I possess an abandonment of fear, casting aside my own perceptions and inhibitions, locking on your gaze as I step out of the boat.

Wait Till Your Father Gets Home

"Wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts."
1 Corinthians 4: 1-5

     This reminds me of that old childlike feeling of knowing that I'm in trouble when mom would say, "Wait till your father gets home." My father's word was the final one; what chance did I have but to face the music?
     The definition of motive is "some inner drive that causes a person to do something or act in a certain way." What drives me to act the way I do? Who is seated behind the wheel? Stress? Vanity? Love or Fear? Seems to me I should allow my stalwart, unchanging Savior to drive because when I base my actions on emotions, I'm all over the road, crashing into things.
     Jesus, you died for me, betrothed be with your Spirit and entrusted me with your secrets. Help me to trust you as implicitly  as you deserve so that when my Father gets home, I will receive praise from Him, not scorn, shame or disappointment.

My Birthday Card from God

"All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
Psalm 139:16

     What a perfect verse to meditate upon on my birthday! God is a consummate author. Each person he creates is like a great novel, a history book. Before I was even introduced to my parents, God penned my life story, molding characters, injecting humor, peppering the plot with joy or tragedy. Painting my eyes an amber brown, he knew I would be tall, graced me with a love of words and nestled me in a loving, Christian home. The setting was the quaint village of Grand River where I walked to school, rode my blue bike and learned about him in Sunday School. He ordained me to be a daughter of his and loves me unconditionally.
     How can my birthday be anything but happy?

The Secret of Contentment

"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or want. I can do all things through him who gives me strength."
Philippians 4: 12, 13

     Most every day of my life, I have had plenty, but I recall a time when my food supply was reduced to a bag of rice and some crackers. I still had a place to live but lost ten pounds in a week. Was I cared for? Yes! That was also the time period when I delved into the Psalms; they became my comfort food. God got me through that time, honing my strength and sharpening my appreciation for faith and family.
     Just as Jesus was led into the desert, God knew I had some rough times ahead of me that would tear me down if I had not spent time in his presence. I am content just knowing that God's grace is sufficient for all my needs.

Like A Rock

"Lift up your eyes to the heavens, look at the earth beneath; the heavens will vanish like smoke, the earth will wear out like a garment and its inhabitants die like flies. But my salvation will last forever, my righteousnes will never fail."
Isaiah 51: 6

     Chevy trucks are built like a rock, or so we're told, and diamonds are forever. Is anything really built to last for all eternity? In the verse above, God tells me to look up, down and all around. What I see is temporary. The sun will vanish? Even the earth beneath my feet will wear out like an old shirt? Everyone I know is as vulnerable as a fly at summer's end? Then what can I believe in, how shall I live?
     I shall live as an Easter person, laying up my treasures in heaven where moth and rust do not destroy, where thieves will not break in and steal. Just as the glory of the autumn leaves fade away, so will my body, but my spirit belongs to the Lord who never changes.
     "On Christ the Solid Rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand." 

Jesus Heals

"Jesus went throughout Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom, and healing every disease and sickness among the poeople. News about him spread all over Syria, and people brought to him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed, and he healed them."
Matthew 4: 23, 24

     I wonder why Jesus healed? Why not just come to provide salvation, a way to righteousness with God? I believe it was due to his overwhelming love and compassion. How could he have stood before them to preach, overlooking all their physical woes, when he had the power to bring relief? Imagine how many people were stricken in those days prior to vaccination, medicine, wheelchairs, or prostetics?
     Now imagine the radiating joy that spread across Syria as formerly paralyzed people danced, those who'd been bent with pain now erect and smiling, those souls ravaged by demons now sane and happy? Jesus brought hope to a hopeless world, freedom to the oppressed "to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair." (Isaiah 61:3)
     Praise be to Jesus who brings wholeness, joy and gladness to those who love him and call him Abba, Father.

When Jesus Touches You

"A man with leprosy came to him and begged him on his knees, 'If you are willing, you can make me clean.' Filled with compassion, Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. 'I am willing' he said, 'Be clean.' Immediately, the leprosy left him and he was cured."
Mark 1:40-42

Imagine being a leper, having had no human contact since being inflicted, being estranged from family and friends, suffering through a disfiguring disease alone. Seeing Jesus, a flicker of hope fans into a flame through faith as you approach him, trembling. Will he shirk away, wrinkling his nose? Will he command you to keep your distance, as others have? No! Jesus, filled with compassion, reaches out his hand and touches you, just as you are, diseased, dirty and discarded. Immediately, your skin is rosy with health. Your burden is lifted by One stronger than yourself. You are a new creation.
The Bible says, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. While I was dead in sin, dressed in filthy rags, discarded by others, he laid down his life for me. I am a new creation.

Pay It Forward

"He decreed statutes for Jacob and established the law in Israel which he commanded our forefathers to teach their children so the next generation would know them, even the children yet to be born, and they in turn will tell their children.  Then they would put their trust in God and would not forget his deeds but would keep his commands."
Psalm 78: 5-7

My parents gave me music lessons, braces for my crooked teeth, food and shelter, a bicycle, games and toys, an education, unconditional love, vacations, laughter and joy, but all would be hollow without the faith in God they demonstrated. If I were mad, mom would remind me, "Don't let the devil get a foothold!" If I were worried, she'd say "Cast all your anxieties on him for he cares for you." Watching birds at the feeder, mom would sing "For his eye is on the sparrow and I know he watches me." My parents prayed during times of distress, praised through moments of joy, accredited their Creator for all things. They spoke of their faith, they taught their children, they prayed for each grandchild as they continued to live in Christ. They showed me the Way, the Truth and the Life so I may live with Jesus for all eternity.
I can't think of a more blessed childhood than that.

Be Still My Soul

"My heart is not proud, O Lord, my eyes are not haughty, I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. But I have stilled and quieted my soul like a weaned child with its mother."
Psalm 131

The Bible is so much more than just a book, it is an ongoing conversation between my Creator and me. God knows how I get every Saturday - harried, irritable, busy cleaning and organizing, cursing the three pets who are under my feet. All I want is peace and quiet after the work week, but it eludes me even though I have lit a few candles and play a Chopin CD. He knows I must still my stirring soul and surrender to him all of my concerns. Only then am I sated.

Oh Be Careful Little Eyes What You See

"I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now, as always, Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death."
Philippians 1:20

I desire this type of fervor. How can I exalt Christ with my body? What do my eyes see when I read or watch shows? Do I listen to edifying music or messages? What comes out of my mouth, seamless praise or acidic gossip? Are my arms open in acceptance or crossing my chest, displaying closure? Lord, may I possess the smile Jesus showed to the children. May my feet never tire of going to church. May I be seen as eager and faithful because I know that you care for me, in this life and the next.

"For me to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21

The Tables are Turned

"Surely the day is coming; it will burn like a furnace. All the arrogant and every evildoer will be stubble, and that day that is coming will set them on fire...Not a root or a branch will be left to them. But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go out and leap like calves released from the stall."
Malachi 4: 1, 2

When the Nazis attempted to annihilate the Jews, their plan was to create a pure race. To do this, they needed to get rid of every Jew, among others they deemed unworthy of life. They obviously did not digest the above verses.The role reversal is evident here. Who is going to end up in the furnace? Who is going to be annihilated?
I think of Corrie Ten Boom and her sister, Bessie. They were imprisoned in a concentration camp for helping save Jews. Although Bessie died in the camp, she had a peaceful smile on her ashen face! She was loosed in heaven, leaping like a calf in the sunshine. For Corrie, those gates of hell on earth were opened; she walked away and was healed by the gift of forgiveness. The power of the gospel was honed by her story as she traveled the globe for Jesus.
And what became of those Nazis? Read your history books. The Lord Almighty has spoken and He always has the last word.

A Little Bird Told Me

"Do not revile the king even in your thoughts, or curse the rich in your bedroom, because a bird of the air may carry your words and a bird on the wing may report what you say."
Ecclesiastes 10:20

God reminds me to reflect him all the way through to my core, not just on the surface.  What I think privately of others matters, though it remains unknown, because it is part of my character.  Personally, I find it very difficult to harness my thoughts, but if I ask the Spirit, who lives within me, to curb bad thoughts at their origin, I am heading in the right direction.

Waiting

"And the Lord God said, ' The man has now become one of us, knowing good and evil. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the Tree of Life and eat, and live forever.'"
Genesis 3:22

This verse has been explained to me that God did not want people to live forever in their sin, so he banished Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden, posting a fearsome cherubim bearing a flaming sword at the entrance.
From the moment we are born, we begin to die as minute cells lose their vitality. As the years pass, we reach our peaks of physical stamina or vibrant intelligence, but it doesn't last forever. The step becomes slow, the eyes dim, body parts fail and are perhaps replaced, but each person has an ultimate demise due to sin. I'm so glad we don't live forever in these limited bodies!
For the Christian, life is a waiting period. We know we are promised eternal life in brand-new bodies. "Meanwhile, we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling." (2 Corinthians 5:2)
So, hang in there! Whatever burdens clothe you now will one day be exchanged for a brand-new wardrobe.

Persistent Prayer

"When he hestitated, the men grasped his hand and the hands of his wife and two daughters and led them safely out of the city."
Genesis 19:16

Lot, his wife and their two daughters are the only righteous folks left in the sin- sick towns of Sodom and Gommorah. Knowing that this family was in danger, Uncle Abraham had been pleading for Lot, his nephew, in prayer. Remembering his love for Abraham, God sent his angels to lead Lot and company safely out of the city.
This demonstrates the power of prayer. Lord, remind me not to think a situation is hopeless, but to persist in prayer for my loved ones. You do hear and remember!

Stand Your Ground

"Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand."
Ephesians 6:13

What are the select pieces of armor? Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, salvation, the Word of God and prayer. Seven pieces - seven is the complete number in Scripture; this is all I need. What is missing from the list that I may consider necessary for battle? How about a weapon? A battle plan? A four star general would be nice. Justice and revenge, too.
As the muslims gather by the thousands at this time and storm the embassies, burning our beloved American flag, fear and anger strike my heart and I instinctively want to protect myself. After all, what if they were roaring down my street, storming my house? I want to be left standing; where's my gun?
Verse 10 of that same chapter says, "Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power." If the enemy storms my house, I can don the righteousness of Christ, stand on the firm foundation of His Word and wield my shield of faith knowing that the battle is between God and Satan, not me and another person. With confidence, I can say I already know who the victor is because I have read the last chapter in the Good Book!
Stand your ground!

Patriot's Day

"Praise the Lord, O my soul, all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits - who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's."
Psalm 103: 1-5

As I opened the daily news and read the daily results of sin - murders, deviances and injustices - I remember the drear drapery of sadness that enveloped our nation eleven years ago today, silencing us in muffled tears or rousing our heated anger in wracking sobs, and I cry out to my Savior! I know all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God and the wages of sin is death; I am a sinner, too, yet he redeems my life from the pit and crowns me with love and compassion because I believe in Him. He longs to do the same for the woman whose face I see on the front page. She is accused of killing an elderly lady, stuffing her body under a mattress and stealing her vehicle, yet here she is smirking in the photograph and I am incensed! What if that elderly person had been my mother? What right does this woman have to dispense such horror on another?
While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us - this includes her too, and those radical Islamic martyrs who died for the wrong cause. How sad for all. Where would any of us be without Jesus Christ?

I Do

"...by law, a married woman is bound to her husband as long as he is alive, but if her husband dies, she is released from the law of marriage."
Romans 7:2

I never thought of my marriage in legal terms before. When I declared "I do" to my spouse, I was not only vowing to love him in sickness and in health, in poverty or wealth, but I signed a binding, legal contract.  My commitment goes beyond the ways of my heart and that is exactly what's needed to get us through rough times. We don't always feel like loving a spouse, but when the law reminds us of our obligations, we settle down and get to work.

Hannah's Prayer

"In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the Lord...Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard...Then she went her way and ate something and her face was no longer downcast."
Samuel 1: 1-20

There is much to learn from the faith of Hannah. Although her husband loved her very much, she was childless. His other wife, big help that she was, provoked Hannah to no end about it, deepening her sadness. "In bitterness of soul" Hannah poured out her grief to God; when she was done, she was cheerful. Was she now pregnant? Was she given a guarantee her prayer was heard? No, but she had faith. She called upon the name of God and departed with her burden behind her.
Prayers that reveal your true grit, your earnest desire or your state of bitterness mean so much more to God than the recitation of a memorized statement. He really does want to know you, so let it all pour forth to him. He's listening!

Stuck Like Glue

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 8: 38-39

Physically, I can be separated from my most loved person. Emotionally, my closest confidant can betray me. Death will end my marriage. Demons can mess with my spirit. I can be the sole survivor of a shipwreck, floating in the oceanic expanse and yet my Jesus abides with me. Nothing in all creation can separate me from my Savior! That is a veritable comfort.

He Watches Me

"These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men. Woe to those who go to great depths to hide their plans from the Lord, who do their work in darkness and think, 'Who sees us? Who will know?' Shall what is form say to him who formed it, 'He did not make me'? Can the pot say of the potter, 'He knows nothing'?"
Isaiah 29: 13, 15, 16

Down deep in my core, to the very small seed of my origin, what drives me? What thoughts are formed and dispatched to my mouth? When I worship my Maker, am I only performing? How silly! God made me so he knows my innermost parts. He knit me together in my mother's womb, the Psalmist tells me, and his eye has been upon me as I toddled about in nappy pants. He knows how many hairs are upon my head, he has witnessed my darkest sins and knows whether or not I was truly repentant. I can hide nothing from him; why would I want to?
Boy, I was sure glad he could see me when, as a child, I was lost in a Wyoming forest! Or the time I was in a near fatal accident in Texas, he brought me through unscathed. Or when I was in anaphylactic shock, being rushed to a hospital in Ohio - He saw me through that, too. When I was in a crumpled heap of anguish on my kitchen floor, He picked me up in his everlasting arms and showed me the way. Do I only want him to see me when I am in need?
Just as in a marriage when spouses see one another with uncombed hair and morning breath, my relationship with Jesus is all inclusive. I'm so glad "his eye is on the sparrow, and I know he watches me."

The Indomitable Spirit

"But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who lives in you."
Romans 8: 10&11

I know a dear Christian woman who is elderly and stricken with Alzheimers. Though her family visits her regularly, she does not recognize them, so cruel a robber is this disease. However, she still exhibits her deep faith through song and scripture. Why is this knowledge not lost to her as well? Because she houses God's Holy Spirit that remains the same yesterday, today and forever. This power can never be diminished. It is available to the poor, the abused and forgotten, the retarded, the young child and the lost. This Spirit will continue to dwell with my friend and any who will receive Him, and lead her to the Promised Land. Alzheimers cannot touch that! Praise be to God.

Slaying the Giants

"Who is this Philistine anyway, that he should be allowed to defy the armies of the living God?"
1 Samuel 17: 26

In reading the story of Goliath and David, I am so touched by David's incensed anger. He had such an undeniable faith! God had armies in heaven, he reasoned. Who was this giant compared to that? I need to see things with this amazing perspective when giants belittle me. Like David, I can boldly say, "I come to you in the name of the Lord of the armies of heaven and of Israel." (verse 45)
I also adore how his older brother, Eliab, admonished him in the usual pecking order of siblings, treating David like a pesty brat. I wonder what went through Eliab's mind when David drew his sword and cut off Goliath's head? The Lord works without regard to human means and I praise him for that. When he uses the weakest, the youngest, the stutterer or the poor to carry out his plans, it flies in the face of the influential people of power.
Like Old Testament Joseph, God's spirit in David helps him to carry out his assignments successfully. Both men rose to places of authority, both were confident in the Lord even when times were tough and unpredictable.
In my own life, my lack of faith often led me down the wrong road. I am sorry, Lord, that I listened to the enemy. Encourage, strengthen and preserve your mighty spirit within this frail vessel, so that maybe someday, I will have a David or Joseph story of my own.

A Reluctant Leader

"But Moses said, 'O Lord, please send someone else to do it.'" But God said, "I will help both of you speak and will teach you what to do."
Exodus 4:13, 15

I can identify with Moses. He's very much at peace, living as a shepherd far from the problems he left behind in Egypt.  He has a good wife, some kids, probably a dog. Life is good. Then, like a lightning strike, God's burning bush sears his placid existence by asking him to return to Egypt!
I often feel tremulous when God asks something of me, either citing my ineptitude or placing the blame on my circumstances, yet God provides all I need, just as he did for Moses. He'd said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now, go. I will help you speak. I will teach you what to say."
What a gargantuan task, to go to Egypt and stir up hornets' nests. Moses lacks courage, but God can still use him, just as he can use me, too. I just have to go.

God's Original Intent

"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
Psalm 51: 10

While peeling a small orange today, I was thanking God for this colorful treat, anticipating its flavor, yet I noticied it was not as juicy as the one I had yesterday. Does this mean it's God's fault, he made it wrong? No. I believe when he created it, each orange had the potential for being as glorious as the original in the Garden of Eden, but inclement weather, incompetent farmers or the passage of time have all taken their toll on the friendly fruit, bringing changes, even though God has tried to protect it with its rind.
God created me with power and potential, but imprints left by circumstances have diminished some of my zest.  I ask God today, on this new day, to restore unto me HIS goals for my life.
What did you have in mind when you created me, Lord?

Don't Blame God

"The Lord was with Joseph and he prospered...The warden paid no attention to anything under Joseph's care, becasuse the Lord was with Joseph and gave him success in whatever he did."
Genesis 39: 2, 29

Joseph was ripped from his loving home, sold as a slave in a foreign country and thrown in prison for a crime he did not commit. Does this sound like a man over whom God is watching?  No, sounds like God forgot about him, doesn't it?  However, God was not the one who put Joseph in these various circumstances; evil people did. God is taking of him, making him successful and prosperous, even in a dank jail cell because he is grooming Joseph for his future role - second in command of the entire nation. Now, is Joseph feeling sorry for himself, drowning in apathy? No, he is busy doing his jobs very well.
Lord, remind me of your presence when it seems like things are going badly. You do have a plan for my life.

A Family Resemblance

"Why do the nations say, 'Where is their God?' Our God is in heaven; he does whatever pleases him but their idols are silver and gold, made by the hands of men. They have mourths but cannot speak, eyes but they cannot see; they have ears but they cannot hear, noses but they cannot smell; they have hands but they cannot feel, feet but they cannot walk; nor can they utter a sound with their throats.  Those who make them will be like them and so will all who trust in them."
Psalms 115: 2-8

Conversely, my God made me, I didn't make him and he made me in his image! It comforts me to see that I resemble my parents, not only by physical features, but by creed, posture, tone of voice or characteristics.  I've been recognized as a relative simply by the way I carry myself. I have my dad's forehead, my mother's eyes, my grandfather's height. I love poring over old photos because they bind me to a clan. The wise Lord created families so we'd have a bracework of strength and a lasting connection.
But, the bigger picture is I am made in God's image. He has eyes, so do I. He hears all that I hear. He has hands and feet that were pierced for my transgressions. He experiences tastes and smells.  He is not an idle idol, prone and mute. He is an interactive, breathing, vocal, upright, holy, living God. May I strive to be just like him.

What Legacy Will I Leave?

"Alexander the coppersmith has done me much harm. The Lord will punish him, but be careful of him, for he fought against everything we said."
2 Timothy 4:14

Not everyone mentioned in the Bible is honorable. If I apply my own name and occupation in the above verse, it really sheds a new light on the importance of my beliefs and actions. What legacy am I leaving in my wake?
At church, I learned about Daniel of the Old Testament. Dealt a difficult hand at a young age, he was forced to erase his heritage, nationality, language and even his very name when exiled from his home, yet God saw his strong faith and used him as a light during a dark time.
Father, I'd rather be like Daniel than Alexander. Strengthen me to fight FOR you, never against you. If I can at least influence one person for Christ, then my life has not been in vain. Forgive my inadaquacies as I surrender to your will.

A Hearse Pulls No U-Hauls

"Do not be overawed when a man grows rich, when the splendor of his house increases; for he will take nothing with him when he dies, his splendor will not descend with him."
Psalm 49:16

Everything I see will not last, even as I view my own reflection. My spouse, children, pets, belongings...I take nothing with me from here. Then I think about wealthy people who have sprawling homes, many cars and jet planes - they leave it all behind, too. Just as the laws of gravity are absolute, so is this fact: you can't take it with you. What does meet my creator? My soul. This is the safe keeping vessel for my treasures. Like a satchel I can pack for a lengthy stay, this is one thing I can attend to. May I pack it with compassion, mercy, charity, grace and an unconditional love for Jesus who redeemed me.

The Luxuries of Royalty

"The city itself was pure, transparent gold like glass! The wall was made of jasper, and was built of twelve layers of foundation stones inlaid with gems...The twelve gates were made of pearls - each gate from a single pearl! And the main street was pure, transparent gold, like glass."
Revelation 21: 18-21

The foundation of an average home is made of cement block, functional, sturdy, yet unattractive.  The foundation of the City of God, however, is built with the likes of these: sapphire, topaz, emerald and amethyst. This tells me that God is generous and unpretentious, as if he is saying, "An emerald basement? That's nothing! You should see your room!" He is the creator of such precious gems; he didn't have to buy them on a payment plan.
Revelation 21:7 says, "He who overcomes will inherit all this, and I will be his God and he will be my son." Lord, by the power of your Son's blood, may I have the strength to overcome and be your daughter.
Amen.

The Crux of All Mankind

"There they crucified him."
Luke 23:35

Four words that take up a few inches on a page, yet contain the crux of mankind.
"There" - at Jerusalem, the City of David, so rich in history. Nehemiah rebuilt its walls, Daniel was exiled from there, the kings of Judah presided over the Israelites.
"They" - It may have been the Romans who drove the nails into his body, but figuratively, this pronoun includes all humankind, especially me. My sins were part of the burden which crushed him.
"Crucified" - What a gruesome thing! Naked, hung on a tree by nails, slowly suffocating as gravity pulls the body down, hours of excruciating misery. That anyone would invent such an inhumane means of execution makes me wince to be human.
"Him" - The babe in Bethlehem, whom shepherds adored and Mary cradled. The boy of twelve in the temple of his Father. The pillar of cloud and fire who led the Israelites to the Promised Land. The Lamb of Passover. The fourth man in the fiery furnace with Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego. The Author of Life, who painted the butterfly's wings and fashioned the complex eyes of a housefly. The One who healed diseases, calmed storms, drove away demons, raised the dead and offered hope to down-trodden castaways. The Lover of Souls who prayed for their forgiveness even as he hung on the cross.

"There they crucified him."

A Solemn Task

"Then a man named Joseph, a member of the Jewish Supreme Court, from the city of Arimathea in Judea, went to Pilate and asked for the body of Jesus.  He was a godly man who had been expecting the Messiah's coming and had not agreed with the decision and actions of the other Jewish leaders. So he took down Jesus' body and wrapped it in a long linen cloth and laid it in a new, unused tomb hewn into the rock."
Luke 23: 50-53

He was a member of the Sanhedrin but did not collaborate in the condemnation of Jesus.  The Bible describes Joseph of Arimathea as a good and upright man who was waiting for the kingdom of God. His name goes down in history for his loving kindness shown to Jesus after his death.  I wonder how many bitter tears he wept as he worked over the body? Just the act of taking it down from the blood-stained cross would be heart wrenching, but knowing your Jewish Council had brought this about must've caused waves of shame and remorse.  As a man who waited for the kingdom of God, perhaps he wondered at God's plan. How could it end this way, with a criminal's death? What was God thinking?
Imagine Joseph's joy on Resurrection Day when he was told, "The stone's been rolled away! The grave clothes are folded to the side; the body you cleansed and wrapped is not there!"

My Father, teach me to have the faith of Joseph; to be looking for your second coming every day, doing your work in the mean time, even if it is in conflict with those around me, so that I may share in your Easter joy.

Pure Faith

"Finally, the other disciple who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed. They still did not understand from scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead. "
John 20: 8&9

The Empty Tomb! What an impact those three words have on a Christian for it means Christ has conquered Satan.
Mary Magdelene went to the tomb but saw the stone rolled away, the body gone! So, she ran to Peter and John exclaiming, "They have taken the Lord out of the tomb and we don't know where they have put him!" How scared they all must've been. Their Messiah has been crucified and buried, their sorrow is bottomless, their hope is gone, and now this startling news from Mary. I can picture John and Peter running to the tomb, out of breath from fear and exertion, eyes wild with wonder. Yet, when they peer into the tomb, they see the grave clothes. If someone stole the body, why would they leave the linens and shroud, and why fold them? This is the dawning of John's faith. Although he does not have all the answers, he sees and believes.
May it be likewise with me, Lord. Your grace is sufficient for all my needs. 

Leave Your Headlights On!

"Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light...See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness. Therefore, if your whole body is full of light, and no part of it is dark, it will be completely lighted, as when the light of a lamp shines on you."
Luke 11: 33-36

Light requires fuel: electricity, oil, candlewax, coal, wood or batteries. The fuel supply must be maintained to keep the light burning brightly. If I am not plugged into God's energy sources, such as the Bible or prayer, my light wanes. If I am feeling angry, resentful, envious or malicious, it shows in my eyes, affecting my entire being. Jesus implores me to "see to it that the light within you is not darkness."
Jesus, may this little gospel light of mine shine exuberantly for you. Amen.

A Person I'd Like to Meet

"The jailer brought them into his house and set a meal before them: he was filled with joy because he had come to believe in God, he and his whole family."
Acts 16:34

Sometimes I ponder some of the people I shall meet in heaven.  I'd love to converse with this jailer. As he'd put the shackles on the feet of Paul, he had no way of knowing it was Apostle Paul, future author of many new testament books. But, after an earthquake loosed the chains and threw open the prison doors, the jailer fell trembling at the feet of Paul and Silas saying, "What must I do to be saved?"  Sometimes, it takes a catastrophic event to magnify our own mortality. The power of God brought this man to his knees. Following his conversion to Christianity, his tender ways were evident as he washed their wounds and set a meal before them in his house.
Lord, what a marvelous way of life you've provided : being filled with joy! Now, the jailer is freely worshiping Christ in heaven. I look forward to meeting you someday, sir.

With God as my Witness

"God...is my witness how I constantly remember you in my prayers at all times."
Romans 1:9

Paul is writing to the Christians in Rome, but what he has written here holds true for all believers who pray.  God is my witness! He sees and hears who I pray about, what I praise him for, how my heart is invested in it, where I am when in prayer and why I am praying for certain people.  The very God who made all the universe witnesses what I have to say. He has promised not only to listen, but to be my proactive intercessor. In this same vein, I shamefully know he's my witness to my failure in prayer - all the times I do not thank him, praise him or just talk to him about my day. 
Lord, may I be as proactive as you are when it comes to communicating with you.  Why would I hold back when I love you so?

My Houseguest

"If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him."
John 14: 23

If someone was going to move in with me, it would have to be someone special - not a stranger. Amends would have to be made: move some furniture, make room, set an extra place. It would be a sacrifice, but what a wonderful houseguest to have, the Creator of the Universe! So, when something goes wrong with the plumbing, He knows just what to do. He is the Master Builder.
Oh, Father, all kidding aside, I relish your company in my home. I will keep the place clean and tidy so just put your feet up and relax. Thank you for loving me, just as I am.

Marvelous Creation

"For since the creation of the world, God's invisible qualities- his eternal power and divine nature- have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse."
Romans 1:20

How can a person still reject God after a careful examination of the precision of creation? Consider the rising and setting of the sun, the passing of the seasons, the water's boundaries, the gravitational pull, the moon and stars, the intricate design of a maple leaf or butterfly wing, the compound eye of a housefly, the heady aroma of a hyacinth, the deciduous nature of some trees, the violence of a tornado or the soft mew of a kitten. No, it is far more sensible for me to believe in my Creator than to think this all begat with a big bang.
Father, thank you for the beautiful world around me.

How Do I Look?

"When Jesus saw Nathanael approaching, he said of him, 'Here is a true Israelite in whom there is nothing false.'"
John 1:47

Jesus searched Nathanael's heart prior to meeting him and was impressed by his sincerity. If Jesus saw me approaching, what would he declare? To consider this, I must ask how do I see myself? I know my thoughts, opinions and beliefs better than any other person. Do I like what's there? Is it impressive to the King of all kings? Honestly, I would not impress the dullest person on my best day.
Jesus, I pray that others would see you when they see me, your kindness and loving mercy.  Create in me something of refinement.

God Sings

"The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing."
Zephaniah 3:17

Imagine the Lord rejoicing in song over me! Shouldn't it be the other way around? Like the dry ground, I absorb the tenderness in his voice when I read "he will quiet you with his love." In such a chaotic world of loud commercials, ringing phones, the clatter of vehicles or the din of the radio, I yearn for the quiet promised here. Why would the Lord take great delight in me? Because I am robed in the righteousness of Jesus.
Thank you, Jesus, for being a Mighty Savior. Even in your weakness on the cross, you are stronger than anything on earth. May my lifesong sing to you.

Don't Open That Door!

"If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it."
Genesis 4:7

God is explaining to Cain how to stay out of trouble.  There is always a decision to be made somewhere along the way and, heaven help me if I open that door where sin is crouching.  It will be like a demon springing out at me shouting, "Gotcha!" But, there is a willful reach of my hand for the knob, isn't there? "You must master it", says God.  Why does Satan desire to have me if all he'll do is torment me until I weep and gnash my teeth? God, on the other hand, desires a relationship with me, just as my parents do. He truly loves me.
Jesus, when my hand is reaching for the knob, speak to me down deep in my soul. Protect me, by the power of your Holy Spirit, from this very real enemy.

She Loved Much

"Therefore I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven, for she loved me much...Jesus said to the woman, 'Your faith has saved you; go in peace'"
Luke 7: 36-50

While Jesus was having lunch at someone's home, a woman of the streets heard he was there and brought a flask of expensive perfume. "Going in, she knelt beside him at his feet, weeping, with her tears falling down upon his feet, and she wiped them off with her hair and kissed them and poured perfume on them." (verse 38) Although this woman is guilty of much, Jesus sees past that; he sees her contrite heart full of love. Though her sins will burden him on the cross, crushing his Spirit, he forgives her. Her faith has made her whole and healed her with peace.
Oh, Jesus, this sinful world brings many sorrows. Some pain lingers, some scars never diminish, but remind me that separation from you is the blackest mire ever. Thank you for the peace that passes all understanding and the forgiveness that blankets a broken and contrite heart.

Warning Signs

"Dear Children, keep away from anything that might take God's place in your hearts. Amen."
1 John 5:21

John's admonition to "keep away" reminds me of various warning signs: "Keep Out", "Beware of Dog", "No Trespassing". Unfortunately, not all pitfalls are so clearly marked, so how do I recognize the dangers? The Holy Spirit guides me, informs and protects me and, like a child, I must learn to listen.  My sinful nature struggles against this, which is so frustrating! I know I love God and want him to dwell richly in my heart for I have experienced disaster when I've gone my own way. So, why the struggle?
When I get to heaven, I will plop down and sigh with relief to see the end of discord and division of self. Help me to read the signs and listen to you, dearest Jesus.

The Golden Rule

"For others will treat you as you treat them."
"Do for others what you want them to do for you."
Matthew 7: 2 and 12

I have noticed this: our moods rub off on each other. If someone is negative, grouchy and frowning, it's as if they are spraying pesticide in the air around them.  But if a person tells a joke, flashes a quick smile or pays a compliment, they are spraying air freshener.  This should cause me to examine myself. What am I spraying? What would I rather be remembered for if I died today? Maybe I should quiz a few of my acquaintances who will honestly assess my personality, then make adjustments accordingly.
Jesus, remind me to spray joy by using my smile more often and sprinkling humor wherever I go.
I love you, Lord.

The Wrath of God

"You alone are to be feared. Who can stand before you when you are angry?"
Psalm 76:7

What examples does the Bible give of God's righteous anger? The plagues of Egypt, the Great Flood, disobedient people being struck down by the Angel of the Lord...I am indubitably glad the acts of love and mercy far outweigh these.  I must be sure to have a high regard, fear, honor and respect for God, never seeing only his loving side, or I may become complacent.  I don't think I could stand before God if he were even remotely scowling; my knees would buckle and my heart would race like a rabbit's.
Lord, remember your covenant when I stand before you, robed in Christ's clothes. Smile and embrace me as your child.  Nothing have I earned but on Christ alone I stand, my solid rock.

Satisfaction for the Soul

"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you in a dry and weary land where there is no water...My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods...Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.  My soul clings to you."
Psalm 63

You are MY God. This is a personal claim of ownership; we belong to each other but it's a difficult relationship. I am a visual person, tangible, whereas you are spiritual, unseen. How do we breech these differences?
You satisfy my soul, not with wan crackers and weary brussel sprouts but with mocha cake and mashed potatos with gravy, all the foods I adore. You create glorious butterfly wings using brilliant hues and precise symmetry. Some may scoff and say, "What a waste, using such artistry on a briefly living thing," but you are not one to go halfway.  You could have made all the leaves of autumn mud-brown, but you chose to splash the hillsides with firey oranges, golden yellows and blushing reds so my soul would be sated by the richest of fare.  If I were the only human on earth, these colors you would yet create. There is humor in the funny white dog with the marbly eyes and yappy bark. There is majesty in the silky fur and languid eyes of the posing cat.  There is mystery is the heavenly bodies of the clear, ebony sky.  There is rest for my clinging soul in the absolutes of your world.
You are all I need. I love you.

The Shadowy Valley

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me."
Psalm 23: 4

I have never seen a shepherd in action, but I imagine the rod and staff are used to beat off enemies or pull back wayward sheep from a hazard.  I picture the valley of the shadow of death as a dark, creepy place filled with frightening unknowns.  Maybe I would hear screams or smell rotting flesh; anything that would make my heart melt like wax, and I have to walk through there!  How can I bear it? Every fiber of my being resists going there and yet I must someday. But, see, by the time I get to that portal, I have already been led along far less dangerous terrains by my Shepherd.  He is a tried, true, trusted friend who is stronger and wiser than me.  He not only knows the way, he IS the way.  He has led me to restful green pastures before, so I know he cares for me: he's not going to leave me in the shadows.  When I get through it, to the other side, he has prepared a safe place for me in full view of all my enemies.  Then, he anoints my head with oil, as if I am royalty. My cup will overflow and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Amen. Let it be no other way.

Jesus Calms the Storm

Jesus' humanity and divinity are woven together in these verses:

"As they sailed, he fell asleep." - Luke 8:23

So peacefully he slept, the disciples had to wake him when a squall put them in such imminent danger, they were fearful of drowning.  We humans don't know how to live so fearlessly, but Jesus is God who created these elements that threatened them so. He's the Top of the Line, the Big Cheese, the King Pin; what does he have to fear?

"He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided and all was calm." - Luke 8:24

I would love to have witnessed that!  Imagine such forceful wind and crashing waves that seasoned fishermen are terrified, yet Jesus speaks and all is calm.

Jesus, speak for me. Speak during the storms of my life, for your word says I will not be given more than I can bear.  May I ever be yoked with you, my fearless defender, redeemer and omnipotent God, my closest friend.

Little is Much in His Hands

"Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven he gave thanks and broke them. Then he gave them to the disciples to set before the people. They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces that were left over."
Luke 9: 16&17

Imagine more than five thousand expectant people show up in your front yard for dinner and all you have are two fish and five loaves of bread! Yet, when this happened to Jesus, he lifted what he did have toward heaven and gave thanks for it; he is not worried about what he does NOT have. Miraculously, everyone was well sated with leftovers - one basket for each disciple - as a visual reminder that God provides in abundant ways.
Lord, whatever meager things I possess, remind me to lift them to you so that little will become much.

Employed by God

"Work hard so God can say to you, "Well done." Be a good workman, one who does not need to be ashamed when God examines your work.  Know what his word says and means."
2 Timothy 2:15

Someday, God will examine my work. Will it be up to par? Like any employee, I must know how to do the job if I am to do it well.  Part of that is familiarizing myself with the handbook, knowing how to use the tools of the trade, getting along with my co-workers and becoming a positive representative of the company.  I must keep working even when The Boss is not looking!
By believing in Jesus' sacrifice on the cross for me, I'm hired into The Company and there is much work to be done until The Boss returns. He has equipped me with the right tools (prayer, the Bible, love for others), now I just have to get busy!

The Ultimate Celebrity

"Christ was alive when the world began, yet I myself have seen him with my own eyes and listened to him speak.  I have touched him with my own hands.  He is God's message of life.  The one who is life from God has been shown to us and we guarantee that we have seen him: I am speaking of Christ, who is eternal life."
1 John 1: 1&2

Have you ever met a celebrity and, if so, were you permitted to touch him with your own hands?
Imagine what an awesome, life-changing, original experience it was for the apostle John, to see, hear and touch God, who existed before all else. I was awestruck when President George Bush came to Kirtland, and I only got to see him from a distance if I squinted.  Nonetheless, it was a dazzling, memorable experience for me.  But this! Interacting with the Messiah on a daily basis?
As unbelievable as this is, a close relationship is available to all who believe on His name. I can say I have been touched by the Ultimate Celebrity!

In God's House

"One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.  For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.  Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me...I will sing and make music to the Lord."
Psalm 27: 4-6

Initially, when I think of God's house, I think of being in church and the security I have always experienced there, next to my father's warm side. Nothing from the outside world could reach me there as the pure loveliness surrounded me: sunshine streamed through stained glass, flowers bedecked the altar, strains of music swayed from pensive to glorious tones, believers shook hands, all of one accord.
As I mature in life, I see that this safe dwelling is in my very soul, for that is where God lives!  He protects me from spiritual enemies as his voice guides me internally. I don't have to go anywhere or wait until Sunday to see Him. I just have to breathe, be still and know God.
Thank you, blessed Jesus. Praises adorn you, my dearest King.

Yes, Jesus Loves Me

"Even when we are too weak to have any faith left, he remains faithful to us and will help us, for he cannot disown us who are part of himself, and he will always carry out his promises to us."
2 Timothy 2:13

This is a blessed promise on which to rest my tired soul.  At times, I have been very weak, totally depleted and sapped of even being able to pray.  Yes, I have believed Satan's lies and given up on God, but this verse proves that he never disowned me, but considers me part of himself.  Like a broken arm that is still attached and will regain its use someday, I am still a part of the body of Christ, just a bit damaged. 
This is a reminder for me to be yoked with Jesus who will shoulder the burden with me and always keep his promises.

When Satan Attacks

"Be careful - watch out for attacks from Satan, your great enemy.  He prowls around like a hungry, roaring lion, looking for some victim to tear apart.  Stand firm when he attacks. Trust the Lord and remember that other Christians all around the world are going through these sufferings, too."
1 Peter 5: 8&9

Imagine standing firm when a hungry, roaring lion attacks! How scary! Yet, that is the kind of stalwart trust God deserves and requires because we can do all things through Christ who gives us the strength.  This verse doesn't say IF our enemy attacks, it says WHEN. It is a comfort to know Christians around the globe are met with these same challenges.  We must stand firm, together, until the day we will receive the crown of life. Amen.

I'm In Good Hands

"Let him have all your worries and cares, for he is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you."
1 Peter 5:7

What blessed assurance this is! An advertisement I saw would have me believe I am in good hands with Allstate, but as soon as my roof would get blown off, there would be a stipulation in fine print that would leave me in a lurch.  There are so many things that concern me, that seem too large for my incapable hands.  How awesome to know the Creator of all is "always thinking about me and watching everything that concerns me."  I'm in good hands with God; what better insurance is there?

This Jesus Peter Knew

"And now Christ is in heaven, sitting in the place of honor next to God the Father, with all the angels and powers of heaven bowing before him and obeying him."
1 Peter 3:22

Imagine what Peter felt as he penned this verse!  The same Jesus who washed his feet, the very Jesus whom Peter denied three times, is enthroned with all the powers of heaven bowing at his pierced feet.  How awesome for Peter to have known Jesus when he was a person, a man who walked, slept, ate, loved and laughed among them; then he also witnessed the horrors of the crucifixtion.
To love Jesus, one must also be ready to suffer with him, as Peter did.  God, thank you for showing us the foibles of your apostle so I know there's hope for someone like me.  May I love you thoroughly and feed your sheep.

Home Sweet Home

"You have been chosen by God himself, you are priests of the king, you are holy and pure, you are God's very own...You are only visitors here since your real home is in heaven.  I beg you to keep away from the evil pleasures of this world; they are not for you, for they fight against your very souls."
1 Peter 2:9-14

If I am not a resident here, only passing through, and my real home does not boast of the "evil pleasures of this world", then it only makes sense to keep away from those things.  They should feel as foreign to me as worshiping Buddha or eating Russian fare.  This is why they fight against my very soul because they don't belong!  It is akin to eating grass or wearing an astronaut's garb to the grocery store.  They are not for me. I am a priest of the King. I am God's very own.

Lord, with the help of your Spirit who dwells within me, lead me home.

Eternal Fame

"Yes, our natural lives will fade as grass does when it becomes all brown and dry.  All our greatness is like a flower that droops and falls, but the word of the Lord lasts forever."
1 Peter 1: 24 & 25

"All our greatness" makes me think of great minds like Einstein or Edison, or great beauties such as Grace Kelly and Princess Diana, or even selfless philantropists like Mother Teresa.  They undoubtedly left a larger mark on this world that I ever will, but their memories fade all the same.  The lovely visage of the beauty nows rots in the grave.  The wheels of Einstein's brain no longer spin.  Each day's obituaries remind me of my own mortality. 
What makes a person immortal? Fame, power or wealth? To the world, I am nobody special, but to God, I am holy and dearly loved, chosen to be immortal because I am clothed in the righteous robes of Jesus Christ.  Eternal life is a gift I gladly accept; let my life be a thank-you note to God.

Loving Without Seeing

"You love him even though you've never seen him."
1 Peter 1: 8

I wonder how I can love someone I have never seen?  Usually, people fall in love because the other is physically attractive, at least initially.  But the love I have for Christ is possible because he first loved me, even when I was dead in my sins.  He died for me and took all my punishment upon his innocent self; for by his stripes I am healed.  What greater love is there?
Oh, Jesus, I don't have to see you to know you, to adore you.  You are as close as my very thoughts and I declare you to be the lover of my soul. I implicitly trust you until we meet face to face.

Like Waiting for Christmas

"And God has reserved for his children the priceless gift of eternal life; it's kept in heaven for you, pure and undefiled, beyond the reach of change and decay...it will be yours in that coming last day for all to see.  So be truly glad!  There is wonderful joy ahead, even though the going is rough for a while down here."
1 Peter 1: 4-6

This, spoken by Peter, who ends up being crucified upside down, to early Christians who were driven out of their homes.  These words of hope assure God's children that the story continues, getting better and better at the end.
The gift, kept out of reach of change and decay, reminds me of a special edition Barbie doll in the original box that's kept on the top shelf in a child's room.  It is beautiful, but to have it now would decrease its value and mar its attractive state.  God, in his wisdom, knows best.  Verse five says God, in his mighty power, will make sure we get there safely to receive it.  He knows we're trusting in him and he won't let us down!

Life is Fragile; Handle With Prayer

"How do you know what's going to happen tomorrow?  For the length of your lives is as uncertain as the morning fog; now you see it, soon it's gone."
James 4:14
"Don't draw up a plan and then ask for God's signature.  Find out what his plan is, then put your name on the list." - Corrie Ten Boom

These two quotations put into perspective God's pecking order, for who am I to think I can control or orchestrate anything?  I cannot change one strand of hair to another color: I cannot speak and therefore create.  When I die, few will remember me, and when those few are gone, no one will have known me. I don't even know if I'll live to the close of this day!
"If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take."
Lord, I submit to your will. Where is your list that I may add my name to the bottom?  Thank you for this reminder that it's not all about me, ever! May I live each day to the fullest until you take me home.

Take Action!

"If your aim is to enjoy the evil pleasures of the unsaved world, you cannot also be a friend of God...but he gives us more and more strength to stand against all such evil longings...so give yourselves humbly to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.  And when you draw close to God, God will draw close to you."
James 4: 4, 6 & 7

God, it says here that you will give me more and more strength. That means that as the temptations increase, so will your provisions to resist them.  You also promise to draw near to me when I draw near to you. Now, that's something I can control!  I can choose to be near you through prayer and the reading of your love letters.
I praise you for the gift of your Spirit, which is as close as my own breath and thoughts.

Got Faith?

"Fool!  When will you ever learn that believing is useless without doing what God wants you to?  Faith that does not result in good deeds is not real faith."
James 2:20

When reading this, I thought about folks who'll say they believe in God, yet they don't seem to produce any evidence.  I fall woefully short in doing what God wants me to, but it's not enough just to confess this.  I must desire to truly change from the inside out, to be generous, helpful, kind and merciful. For, even the demons believe there is a God; it's their deeds that negate their faith.

True Wealth is Not Measured by Dollars and Cents

"How can you claim that you belong to the Lord Jesus Christ if you show favoritism to rich people and look down on poor people?  Judging a man by his wealth shows that you are guided by wrong motives...God has chosen poor people to be rich in faith and the kingdom of heaven is theirs."
James 2:1-9

Lord, I struggle with judging people. I want to honestly look upon their heart, but the tentacles of society often encroach upon my conscience, causing me to cast judgments based on sight.  The truly wealthy haven't two dimes to rub together, but lay up for themselves heavenly treasures that don't lose interest or get repossessed.
Lord, teach me to examine my own heart and to peer into the souls of others with your sight before I jump to judgments and conclusions. Forgive my humaness.
I love and trust you, Lord Jesus.

The Key to Happiness

"Happy is the man who doesn't give in and do wrong when he is tempted, for afterward, he will get as his reward the crown of life that God has promised those who love him."
James 1:12

It's important to keep my perspective when faced with a temptation: What is more valuable?  This dangling carrot or the Crown of Life?  What may entangle my choices is the fact that rewards or punishments are deferred, they aren't received right away so it seems as if nothing happens, it doesn't matter.  The world would have me think, "It's okay, no one is getting hurt. Do what you want."  But, it's not okay.  This verse assures me the key to happiness is doing it God's way. 
With the help of his Spirit, deep in my heart, this is my desire.  Help me, Lord, to be great in your sight.

"Patience is a Virtue" (or so my mother used to say)

"Is your life full of difficulties and temptations? Then be happy for when the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow.  So, let it grow and don't try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete."
James 1:2-4

James hit the nail directly with his opening question.  Since I would answer yes to this, I must then be patient and face my problems.  How long will it take for my patience to reach "full bloom" status?  And, what do I do in the meantime?  Just keep taking everything on the chin? 
I will lean on my comforter, the Holy Spirit, for direction.  He is the one building strong character in me, thereby making me strong and complete.  Lord, remind me that my enemy is not flesh and blood, rather it is the principalities of this dark world, so gird me for battle with the full armor of Christ, for I am a Christian Soldier.